Burn Out

I am suffering from severe burn out – like my motivation is at E. I’m at the end of one of my most tedious courses (Public Administration) and a host of other things are on my plate. I remember laughing but I don’t do it every day now – maybe that’s what is missing. I need a good laugh – a laugh so hard you fart kinda laugh. A laugh so hard you can’t breath (possibly because of the previous fart) kinda laugh. It’s so simple, but I really believe that is the best medicine. I’m not ready to throw my Zoloft to the wind and replace it with laughing – but I think it would increase the efficacy. And while I sit here typing this blog my keyboard keys are sticking and not showing what I type on the screen unless I slap them repeatedly. It’s driving me nuts – I would throw this damn thing across the room if I didn’t, you know, need it to live. Add that to the list of crap that is burning my rope….I seriously need to pick at something.

On a side note, I am doing freelance writing for money if anyone needs anything done.  I do articles, papers, blogs etc.  Let me know what you need, I don’t really have any limits except I won’t write porn.  I saw this job where they wanted someone to rewrite a gay erotica short story and I was like – how do you re-write that?? Anyway you spin it it will look like the same story…..

This just in!

SO, I am working on my website when I come to a recent article about how skin picking is now defined as its own disorder.  This has been a long time coming my friends, really.

However, the elephant on the page is the “9 Things We Shouldn’t Pick or Pop”.  Really?  So lets write an article on how this is a mental disorder and aggravate things further by shoving in down your throat that you shouldn’t be doing it.  It’s like saying, here – you have an issue and we know that but you need to stop and here is why.  As if us skin pickers don’t already know we are damaging our skin and have high risks for infection.

However, I do like that they noted the genetic “vulnerability” of the disorder and wish they would dive into the link of it being learned as well.  Most people I know that pick have seen others pick to deal with stress or have been picked at by others.  Overall, I guess I am just glad that awareness is rising.

Gender Bias

So technically, most skin pickers are women (as per research).  Now – let me tell you why this is not necessarily true.  As we all know – studies can be used to show anything.  I do it all the time with my research papers.  If there is an opinion, I can find a credible source that will either back it up or discredit it, whichever you choose.  So, to say that the majority of skin pickers are women we have to think about the nature of a woman and her constant bombardment of what the media thinks a perfect woman is.  Naturally, we also are more likely to admit our issues than men, since they still (archaically) believe that flaws are weaknesses.  On top of that, we have been programed to believe that anything less than perfect skin is ugly (enter beauty products to correct said imperfections). There are a million other reasons why the studies show women more likely to be compulsive skin pickers. 

However, having known many men in my life that are also skin pickers, I can tell you that it is not the case.  Men are less likely to view it as an issue however.  I see guys all the time picking at their face in the car mirror while at a stop light.  If a woman is caught doing this, it’s appalling.  For a guy, just another day with a zit.  If there could be millions made by brainwashing men into having generations with body dysmorphic disorder (that’s a whole other blog I need to get going), and then selling them things to help them “overcome” this issue – then I think the gender gap in research on the issue will start to even out.

No Really, It’s OCD

OCD is so in the public now days that people use it to describe just about any quirk they have. While I believe many people have OCD like tendencies, this general use of the word makes things both easier and harder for those of us who have it. For instance, you may walk into a filthy house and claim “My OCD is kicking in! I can’t be in this filth!”. Ok, that’s not OCD sweetie – it’s normal to be disgusted by a nasty house. The good news is that, when we who have OCD, proclaim it to others as a sort of warning or just in conversation, it is easily received by just about anyone. What they usually don’t get is that we are serious and it is a real issue. I have ALWAYS been very open about my compulsion, and would usually tell people back in the dating scene upfront. Normally, since everyone all of a sudden has it, they would blow me off like “no big deal”. Later down the road there was always a moaning about how I can never touch anyone without picking. DUH! What part of “I have OCD and my compulsion is skin picking” didn’t you understand? Once again, let me add that I am SO thankful to be with someone who gets it.

At the end of each post now I’m going to do a thing called “My First Thought”. As this implies, I will put an issue that I hear about and my first thoughts on the subject. Why? Because I can. So heads up – these are literally my first thoughts on the subject. They will be short-sighted, and probably without tact, as I usually am.

I heard on the radio that the US is no longer going to give aid to Egypt as our government believes the military there is staging a Coup. This aid is to the tune of one billion dollars.

My First Thought
Duh, its a coup – and does that mean we can put that money into paying off our deficit?

Leave the front door unlocked

Leave the front door unlocked

My sister shared this with me on FB and I thought it needed to be shared with you.  If you don’t understand OCD or don’t know anyone who has it, then this might offer some perspective.  Although I believe this is an extreme case and he should really seek treatment, it warms my heart that love would put such a wrinkle in his reality.  To say it is hard to find someone who accepts your compulsions is a rare thing.  I’ve had many a relationship end because someone couldn’t deal with my “issues”.  Even, as the man in the video notes, having someone think it’s cute in the beginning may end up annoyed by it.  I have to say I am blessed to be with someone who loves me to my core, compulsions and all.

(Re) Introductions



So, since I am starting fresh I might as well “begin at the beginning” as they say. I started this (new) blog mainly because I always have a lot on my mind. Why would you care? Well, I’ve been through more than most and am still somewhat normal. This may interest you since many people who have been through the ringer in life will use it as an excuse to be… (enter issue here). Or they use it as an excuse to be nothing at all. Although I believe your past experiences give you good reason for many things, I don’t believe they are an excuse for anything!

Theinnerskinpicker is something I thought of that applies to my compulsion of skin picking. I am in recovery but that issue is still a struggle every day. Much like an alcoholic, I take it day by day and do my best.

Unlike my previous blog I will be pretty much talking about anything and everything and won’t keep it isolated to my compulsion, as it does not define who I am. I hope I can provide a smile for you and maybe some perspective. Enjoy!